[MEGA POST!! HOLD ON TO YOUR HATS!!]

"Do you wish to enlighten me as to the reasons behind it before I open it, or am I to just open it and figure it out on my own?" the CSO asked as she arched one eyebrow with a slight hint of wry sarcasm.

Danmar couldn’t help but smile. Even her sarcasm was delightful. “Open it,” he said with a grin.

{After she does so}

“I found this stone while walking along a Michigan beach on Earth." He remembered the day he found the stone. It was six days after the death of his wife Lorik; his daughter being six days old incidentally. Leaving her with his parents, he went for a walk along a beach near their home.

He began to tell T’kai of his grief; the grief that had been eating at him daily, but he held it in for the sake of his students; a group of open-minded, young Vulcans that they had been discipling; teaching them to find balance between emotion and logic. They were earth born to Vulcan parents, but found it difficult to separate themselves from the emotional humans that surrounded them daily.

They loved Lorik and grieved for her also, but Danmar felt he needed to be strong for them as they all dealt with the tragedy. Finally, though, as he walked heavy footed and heavy hearted down the sandy beach of the shoreline, he couldn’t hold it in any longer. Falling to his knees, tears staining his eyes, he released his lament in a heart and gut wrenching scream that pierced the dusk sky.

The world seemed to stand still as though creation itself offered a moment of silence for passing of his beloved. He couldn’t remember hearing the sound of the waves crashing; nor the sound of the wind as it blew through the trees; nor the sound of the fowls of the air as the flew overhead. There was only his voice; his pain-filled and sorrowful voice that now stood alone in the universe. It was more than he could bear.

At that very moment, fate turned his head toward the waterline. There, half buried in the sand washed up by the tide, was a small stone barely the size of his index finger from tip to first knuckle. Picking it up in his hand, he held it as though dumbfounded by it’s presence and, in that moment, he decided to postpone his anguish. Lowering himself to the ground, he focused his mind, just as Lorik had taught him, and reproduced the stone in his mind. There, in the stone, he placed the image of her lifeless body. There he placed the look on the physician’s face as he told him of the news. There he placed the despair that was plaguing him for the last six days.

She warned him about using the technique. She warned that it should be used only under the direst of circumstances. It was not to be used to run away from problems, but to break down the overwhelming ones so they may be dealt with in increments. Once the images and emotions were placed in the stone, only viewing the stone would conjure up their intensity. It had taken a long time, but Danmar finally brought himself to a place where he had felt he could deal with that part of his life and, through painful confrontation, he finally overcame them and made peace with the past.

As Danmar communicated the story behind the stone to T’kai, he felt a release, as though a tremendous burden was being lifted from his shoulders. He had never been so open and so honest with someone about it.

It felt good. It felt . . . right.

The stone was all that was left. He kept it as a reminder of what once was and how far he had come. Now, he wanted to bury it for good. He had found someone worth moving on for.

As he finished, he looked into T’kai’s eyes. “I know this is a lot to take in, but for some reason, I found myself wanting to share this with you; wanting to share this and more with you. I’m ready to finally lay to rest the remnants of that chapter in my life and write a new one . . .”

He paused for a moment, preparing himself to utter his next words, not knowing how she would receive them.

“. . . with you.”

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OOC: Let’s all just pause and think about all that for a moment, shall we?(lol)
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CNS LtCmdr Danmar Kuenzli-Romain, USS Broadsword
CNS Lt Bryce Kelly, USS Victoria
Player - Mike Damen
mikefromlazergraphics@yahoo.com



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